My sister made that phrase (and now we use it all the time). I love her, she is my favoritest, the best person in the world. So very beautiful, comforting, positive, simple, calm...complexities in life - Zero.
Just like mummy.
I have a new shitty job and the last week was pure misery. Although it was just a week ago but I can't seem to remember why I took this job. WHY WHY WHY!
I think I create these situations for myself, dive right into the pile of shit and then complain about how pooped out I am. I do it EVERYtime OVER and OVER.
I was home, I was free, zero-pressure, zero-ambition. I was happy. And then I decided I needed a job. And here I am.
Frustrated, tired, burnt (because now I have no time to cook. So I keep rushing and burning my hands, which now look like the typcial 'Indian-wife-who-goes-to-work-comes-home-cooks-cleans-feeds-family-then-eats-dinner-while-standing-at-the-kitchen-counter-and-eats-stale-rotis-with-old-leftover-food-so-she-doesnt-have-to-throw-the-food-she-cooked-with-so-much-effort-two-days-ago'-type hands that are overworked and underhydrated, with small dotty burn marks all over.
I am worried that I am losing myself.
So, I have this strategy called 'float' that works really well for me. I won't get into today, but all I will say is that "misery" will have to suck it up because I am going to be DRUNK HAPPY (like I used to be) - no matter what it takes.
I will be young and vibrant and happy and stressfree, physically fit, mentally calm and simple. Life mein complexity - zero.
Just like mummy.
Once I texted 'sweet dreams' to my dad and he replied saying"wah well articulated...but are there any realties? Only dreams, sab kuchh sirf sapna...''
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